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That’s me at the Grand Canyon for the first time, a magnificent moment and special time with friends.
Having fun with friends is part of the ketamine for depression prescription.
I had my first ketamine consult and I am approved for ketamine therapy for depression!
Katherine, a psych nurse located in Pennsylvania, shared a bit about herself as we got started. She works with the Lenape Indians in Pennsylvania and has also worked with the indigenous tribes of South Dakota. I make the assumption she’s had some pretty authentic experiences with shamanistic medicine and psychedelic journeying. After asking a series of health and medical questions, she determined I was a good candidate. I didn’t have some of the disqualifiers such as high blood pressure or high cholesterol, diabetes and so forth.
On a quest bigger than myself
Some of the most profound parts of our first consultation happened in the last seven minutes or so, when Katherine helped me identify the larger significance of what I’d shared with her from my personal journey. The stuff about rolling over in my relationship with my husband, becoming codependent and suppressing my voice, and losing alignment with my true self in my marriage.
“That’s exactly what’s happened in the world, and that is where the positive masculine and positive feminine need to re-emerge on the planet,” said Katherine.
Where was the positive masculine and positive feminine all these years on this planet? she posed. With the “I”-ness of patriarchy and everything being about taking and so little about giving, compassion and empathy.
“What you are seeking for yourself with the medicine, the ketamine therapy,” Katherine pointed out, “this desire for connection with Self, and between Self and Universe and Earth and Everyone on it, is a microcosm and reflection of everything that’s happening on the planet.”
I could feel my heart and mind expanding as she was speaking.
What you are seeking for yourself with the medicine, the ketamine therapy,” Katherine pointed out, “this desire for connection with Self, and between Self and Universe and Earth and Everyone on it, is a microcosm and reflection of everything that’s happening on the planet.”
“This joie d’vivre that you seek to re-establish,” she continued, “is an expression of all four matriarchal lineages of your mother and father. So the four female ancestors on your mother’s side and the four female ancestors on your father’s side. You represent them with this persistence in recovering your joie d’vivre⏤your desire to express that in the world⏤it’s your gift from them, to go on.” (God, how did she know I was so into ancestry and this very conversation on a spiritual as well as epigenetic and genetic level.)
My first consult was a little bit clinical, a little bit metaphysical, and I dug it.
I suddenly felt like there was so much more I was bringing to the table for my ketamine journey⏤and so much more I could potentially get.